I Wished...
11:43 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
there's lots i wanna blog about
but because of a pain in the ass anthropology paper due tm which i havent even read the materials im sup to reflect on,
i cant.
i shall attempt to rem wat i wanna blog about
when i act have the luxury to
not too hopeful
for now..
im freezing my big ass off
even thou im cloaked in a sweater and the fan's not even on
i wan hot soup
my paper to be magically done
my laundry to be washed and dried in the morning
my bruises scrapes and fingers to stop hurting
my muscles to stop aching
and for now, to stop sneezing and freezing.
okie off to read my notes
realli realli boring and cheem notes
argh..
-- black nail polish! --
12:47 AM
Friday, January 26, 2007
coffee and excessive exercise makes kim jittery
in an attempt to not fall aslp for my alcohol class (cuz i had to wake up supa early for my 10am tut), i decided to drink coffee..
cold canned nescafe..
before im halfway thru w the can
i could feel my heart racing..
my fingers were trembling
i was hyper alert
found every single lame joke from the lect furnie as hell
and talked like a speeding bullet
i was feeling happy..
and excited..
which i havent been in a long long time.
but after the netball match
the jitteriness was still there, aided by the rush of adrenaline and endorphins from all the running
i still spoke damn fast
my mind was still trying to catch up w my actions
and my fingers trembling
but i was no longer high
i feel bad cuz i shld haf played better
somehow..
although i realli did put in my best and i was amazed by the improvement in my stamina (prolly due to the caffeine lah)
those 2 shots shld haf went in
still i realli am proud of the ke gals.
im sorrie if i shouted at aneone, its the adrenaline!
it was a good game
alot faster
still it was fustrating..
argh!
just wished somehow i could haf played better
but i noe.. not very possible..
old already and after all the training i think im in my best state now already.
but still..
haiyoh
anewaes tennis training was fun todae.
i think its the caffeine haha..
and after that i was like starving
so here i am.. at chars house
stuffed w chompchomp goodies!
and the effects of the dae starting to fade.
which is bad..
my whole body is aching
2 fingers feel like an elephant just stepped on them
my feet.. ouch. 4 blisters and counting
bruises.. stopped counting
im old and useless already man..
shitty
i need to train up..
hate feeling so slow and tired.
ive never been fit fit.. or fast
haha
but im gonna try now to train and keep it up
just for a healthier lifestyle
at a ripe old age of 21.. im gonna try
hahahahaa
wow i blogged blogged..
and its not just whining about my pathetic life
guess the caffeine hasnt realli worn off yet
thats why i dun drink coke or coffee or tea..
so when i actually do drink them..
its like 10 tequila shots combined
haha
my fingers wun stop trembling
shitty.
and im typing at lightning speed!
realli!
i am a lil tired of losing..
but i realli cldnt care less
being competitive isnt realli the highlight of my character although i take training very seriously, if u put in the effort to train might as well make it count and want to win, makes it all the more fun right
still im very proud of our spirit
and we realli are doing this against all odds
lack of training, experience, logistics, coaches, courts
very good already okie
mai hiam haha
i guess at the end of the day if we haf fun then its all worth it
lose nvm.. look good doin it can already
haha
okie im not realli thinking str8 anemore.
i need sleep
and rest.
old haggard kim
oh wait.. we ate steamboat todae!!
gave both me and char bad tummy ache
but it was worth it!!
so was the shopping after that!
teehee!
-- stinky --
4:09 AM
Friday, January 19, 2007
live prawns!
wheee..
21 live prawns
wheeeee wheeee!!
up at 430am
again
no wheee
..
feeling sick
never recovering
no whee..
live prawns
wheeeeeeeeeeee
-- soya sauce --
2:47 AM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
im soooo tired!
i feel like my limbs are detached from my body
today started of pretty bad..
in a surreal way
feeling realli disillusioned about people and my life in general
kinda stressed about vball too.
but it ended good
im realli proud of my vball gals
todae's game made me rem how much i like playing vball
it realli exceeded my expectations lah.
22-25 in the last set
lotsa realli good rally and very nice saves and play
realli heartening to see that i begginner team like ours can play like that
quite wasted that we lost
but im happy w wat we acheived
it would be an experience to rem always
thank u again gals!
still the late nights
unhealthy food
endless trainings
and realli bad weather
so totally isnt helping my fever.
argh..
hate feeling like this
5:26 AM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
im up
at 530am
feeling realli sick
fever
stomachache
naseousness
sick to the stomach
in more ways than one
i hate how i trust so easily
i hate how i get so damn hurt by the people ive come to trust
and how i never learn from it
then having to deal w the repercusions of that
only to find myself forgetting about it and trusting them again
talking to charchar till so late
many things have come to my attn
about myself
some specific people we know
and people in general
and its a good thing...
but then again
right now im realli feeling very very sick
and i got 7 hrs lect 3hrs of which im skipping for ihg vball and then 2 hrs soccer training
right now i can hardly lift my fingers to type lah..
realli hope i can function tom.
i realli wished i had a stronger character
or a character in general haha
oh yah, and less dumb.
-- people suck --
4:36 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
im still down w stomach flu
which sucks..
argh.. esp now that all the competition are starting
gonna play tennis ihg against TH in 2 hrs
wth..
i cant play lah
im so gonna cuz us to lose!
so dreading it
only had 4 trainings in total
and nv touched the racket b4 that
and the last one had ended only 10mins ago.
can feel the flu bug kicking back in during the training.
i haf no idea how im gonna last later
but im gonna try my best..
i guess they haf their reasons for still putting me in even thou im like a total beginner and im down w fever.
cant fathom wat that reason is thou haha
but i will try!
dun wanna let the team down.
again.
pls let the medicine kick in soon
i feel like im gonna keel over and puke my guts out.
i hate being so weak.
alil rain, a couple of late nights, and training onli
and im like.. fever.
argh! wth
char's coming back tom!
yay!
well.. im gonna go lie down for awhile..
pls pls let a miracle happen.
haha no more fever and can play tennis thank u.
-- str8, move feet, follow thru, proper stroke --
11:27 PM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
in short..
last night was hell lotta fun!
woohoo..
but...
right now my head is splitting in half
bad hangover
dun help that i seem to have the stomach flu
fever, stomachache, sorethroat body aches, the works...
i guess the constant stress and training in bad weather is finally kicking in
of cuz the partaying din help lah
too much screaming last night my throat feels like sand paper
i realli hope i get well soon man
all that training and then being sick during the actual comp?
so lame.
im tired.
realli tired.
snores
-- sniffs, cough, hack--
9:05 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
char's goin overseas tom!!
boohoo
be careful charpattie..
come back soon! haf fun and buy me lotsa things! teehee
the rain is stealing all my precious training slots!
and its making me flabby
correction is more flabby
stop raining!
ihg tennis no more on monday! still got a week left
i reali reali hope i dun hafta play
cuz i cant play
but apparently im playing
singles
great
grand total of 3 trainings
no stamina cannot serve dunnoe rules and w a pulled thigh muscle
how to play
help
personality and alcohol lect sucked
im so gonna do so badly this sem
too hard and im too dumb
and im all alone for alcohol
boohoo
on a happier note
im partaying w my gals tom night!
phuture yest w char and yv was good
good music good company but not too good crowd
hopefully tom will be better
and we're prepared to haf some real crazy fun like old times!
-- i am me --
12:01 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
okie.. seriously?.. life's realli getting me down.
yes yes
i need to stop whining
and get on w it
grow up.
but couple that w the fact that i hated turning 20 and then 21
why the hell shld i grow up
once again the angsty need to get pissed drunk and pass out
argh..
i need to get my new years resolutions out
it worked for me last year
but the calm barely lasted a year
better then nuthing
i feel lost and confused
identity moratorium as my adolescent psych text wld say
but im 21..
i shldnt be in moratorium
i guess everyone goes through this stage once in awhile
doesnt mean i dun get to whine about it and wallow in self pity
i noe the root cause of this feeling
char noes
and my adolescent psych text noes
the key ingredient to idenity formation-->
hey, i cant keep crying over spilt milk
but i can keep wallowing in self pity over it
yes yes others elsewhere have it worse.
yes yes i have lots to be thankful for
yes yes im prolly over dramatizing my problems
i guess i still havent stepped out of being an adolescent
for a brief period last year i thought i had
and i was confident i found myself
i dun doubt that
but i wasnt able to hold on to it
esp when life throws so many curve balls at u
blink n u lose part of urself
wat now.
random thoughts:touch rugby left me sunburnt,
injured,
feeling old and
w a realli muddy pair of boots
i dunwanna be capt of anething anemore
im a bitch and a wimp all in one flabby self
club tonight club friday night
too old to club haha
purple streaks again
meaning soon turning to moss
i dun wanna play tennis for ihg! i cant play not after only 3 trainings
2006 news creeping into 2007
gross people
indifference
-- tired and misunderstood --
1:14 PM
Friday, January 05, 2007
ive been wanting to blog about so many things
but i've been too tired and too lazy to get round to it
firstly.. goodbye 2006!
the new year's eve bash at siloso beach was a blast!
the glitter lounge w free flow of drinks and food and the best view of the stage w utt and denise hangout w us.
not to mention stilt walkers, fire breathers and snake man! haha
so with 2006 goin out w a bang
im sooooo looking forward to 2007
im saying good riddance to shitty 2006
shitty people, shitty events shitty stuff.
no more looking back
lets concentrate on 2007
and rem only the good things from 2006
or so i say
it has been a pretty hectic and stressful hols
with little close to nuthing goin my way
im thankful for my results and would like to say that i worked my ass off for it although char begs to differ
but i did, and i almost died during exams
this sem's cap of 4.3 pulled up my overall cap significantly which i tot was impossible
its still only a third class at 3.47 but im happy! teehee!
honestly vball is quite a stressor
remind me nv ever ever to be a captain again
im proud of my gals and i think they've did well inspite of our disadvantages
but its tiring.. and im too old for this haha
i wanna play and haf fun but i think the competitive streak in me has mellowed from its already near nonexistence.
onli hope now is that this gals learn and haf fun during it.
there's always next year!
and we did win raffles in a friendly! so thats a start.
in fact we were laughing and having more fun than the winning team today
thats nice to see.
i think ive gotten too used to losing that it doesnt even bother me the least bit
haha
.... in fact im a lil worried that it has turned into a self handicapping strategy
but i cannot be bothered to do anything about it.
i still love sports thou.. haha
random thoughts cuqz im too laqzy to blog furthur
new years eve din w family rocked
sembawang beach w mummy and bobo!
lotsa shopping a char
im officially broke
endless training
holland v supper
missing my girlys
no more getting bogged by shitty people
-- airheaded --