I Wished...
3:56 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
i dun mean to sound like an angsty teen in the midst of puberty
but LIFE SUCKS
realli realli sucks.
there have been the okie times this weeks
some good times.
but mainly SUCKY TIMES.
especially today..
bad day bad bad day
i feel like its me against the rest of the world
i feel so small and insignificant
i feel ostracized.. by everyone but no one in particular.
my self esteem is small as a pea.
im the dumbest person alive rite now.
the world hates me.
yup, i do sound like like the adolescent in puberty.
a text book example rite outta my adolescent psych text.
personal fallacy, imaginary audience, centrality
rite now i feel like the world revolves arnd me.. and it hates me
so that cant be a good thing
im evolving backwards.
yikes.
kim.. grow up.
get a life.
-- when life hands u lemons, sulk and complain how sour it is --
11:23 AM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
last night was the worst night's sleep ever.
ever.
and it onli goin downhill from here
i cld nv hav even imagine that kind of loneliness
now ive been thru it
the dread of waking up and the confirmation that eveything was real
that it wasnt juz a bad dream
the hurt.
i feel like eveything juz collapsed on me
once again.. this happened when i felt like things are starting to get better.
life will nv be okie.
everythings diff.
nuthings stable
nobody nuthing can be trusted
im even too disoriented now to actually blog wat i feel
i dun noe wat to feel
how to feel.
everything else that seemed to matter so much.. everything else in my life.. juz life itself, now pale in comparison.
nuthing seems to mean anething anemore
how can they..
there's no point in anething anemore.
there is hardly even a me..
its like .. juz disintegrating slowly and painfully.
and i cant do anething abt it.
its worse than b4.
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9:30 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
im smothered in tests and papers and projects.SMOTHERED.every waking second in spent studying working and stressed.i wonder why i was actually looking forward to sch re-openingsumhow this "smothered" part of sch nv seems to stick in my memoryim so dreading examsthis gotta be the most hectic sem yet.the mods are crazy.. got test still got paper then still got presentationfark.BTW..I LURVE SOCI PROFS.my beloved soci prof juz gave me an extension on my paper.i asked for 1 or 2 days, she give me 5 days!!!!!!sumore wish me good luck for my other tests and paper and said she understood the pressure we're goin thru.everyone.. GASP.how nice is that?!hate the module.. luv the prof.the only break i got this week.thats why i can afford to blog haha.random tots:cousin's wedding rockedforbbiden city rockedgathering w proggies rockedmahjong w proggies.. por shifu won slap slapmajong w oily shaun and char.. oily won.. cut balls outzouk absolutly suckedbut mini cj gathering and reminiscing afta rocked.thurs rocked.. teeheerealization: my vocab is the size of wat pple think my brain is.