its been hell the past few daes..
lots of reason.
so bad it seems so surreal.
wake up in a blur
right now im juz trying to get by.
looking ferward to hongkong next week!
wheee..
i admit ive had my bitchy immature moments.
but everyone makes mistakes.
and i am sorrie fer saying and doing certain things
and its been hard to let it go..
but im cutting myself sum slack
and im getting over it.
so if sum other pple choose to dwell on it then so be it..
ur entitled to ur own opinions.
i noe im very opinionated
and i can come across as an arrogant self righteous BUT VERY ignorant bitch.
and i agree.. i am that sometimes.
but im trying not to be rite.
but hey.. sumtimes.. i am actually right. haha
i guess we're all older now..
so i shld juz learn to chill.
and most imptly learn from my mistakes.
im slow.. so bare w me
i need to stop rationalizing every single action of mine
every single thought.. desire, decison and choice.
sumtimes.. u juz gotta do it
and once its done its done
it either brings u forward in ur life or sets u a step back.
so deal w it
and make the best of it.
there'll always be a million "if onlys"
but hey.. we wldnt haf known.. so it doesnt matter.
and there's always a silver lining in every situation.
no matter how bad..
at the very least i will be able to handle similar bad situations better in future.
and frens..
true frens, hi bye frens, aqquaintances..
dun get me started
learnt alot over the years abt them
from not giving a heck abt having them or not.. to being supa needy abt it.. and then realising that real true frens.. cant be made.. they juz are.
so in the past few bad situations ive had
at least u find out whu ur frens are
pple whu arent swayed by hear-say
whu stand by u
belive u and support u
and love u no matter how bitchy u are.
and im juz glad ive found a few.
and im equally glad ive sifted out the backstabbing bitches..
i seem to attract alot of those.
hmm.. i seem to be goin thru alot of these "learning phases" in my life
and their supa depressing
but i guess i gotta go thru it to.. well.. learn.
better sooner than later i guess.
so now wats left is to decide on wat it is that i wan fer my life..
which is still a huge question mark
best guess?
i juz wan to be happy.
haha
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